What the hell is my Mistakes??

What the??

You've suddenly acting like this..

and i don't even fucking know why

if you think that i thought that you're not perform well..

well you're wrong, i didn't think that at all..

i get it.. you've got plenty to do

but who doesn't?

i'm understand..

but...

i've got problem too

i can't sit around smiling and trying to understand bout' your behaviour at all time!

i thought if you joined me,

we'll be fun...

enjoyed each other..

and just having fun!

and that's the added value from us to win!

but if you don't enjoyed this,

i didn't think we have what it takes to keep this on...

i've just praying that this is just a matter of time

before all just come back to normal

Gbu

:-)

Sure..!!

Today..

after mega-essay-quiz

i'm finally sure...

I WILL NOT TAKING FINANCIAL MAJOR IN MY 3RD YEAR!!!

Yeahhh!!!!

Maafkan Aku

This is a song from Oddisey 2009

and i think it's fit to current situation

so i changed few lyrics.... and

i want to dedicated this song to my someone special

Maafkan Aku...

ini bukan inginku

ini bukan mauku

mauku selalu denganmu

berdua dengan mu selamanya

seandainya ku bisa memilih

seandainya kamu sepertiku

mauku kita selalu bersama

bersama hingga selamanya

maaf..

maafkan aku..

kamu wanita pilihanku

dan aku mematikanmu

mematikan dirimu dan hari mu

kuingin selalu bersamamu

bersamamu adalah mimpiku

mauku selalu denganmu

berdua denganmu selamanya

dan akupun ingin engkau tau

bahwa ku selalu mencintaimu

mauku selalu denganmu

bersama hingga selamanya

maaf..

maafkan aku..

kamu wanita pilihanku

dan aku mematikanmu

mematikan dirimu dan hari mu

andai aku

bisa memilih

agar ku tetap disana

semoga engkau tahu

bahwa ku

selalu

mencintai dirimu

maaf..

maafkan aku..

kamu wanita pilihanku

dan aku mematikanmu

mematikan dirimu dan hari mu

I'm sorry for unable being there for you

at our 2nd anniversary

at 12 december 2009...

really sorry...

love you... :')

Good for them, or good for you?

Hey! it's not about you..

it's about them..

so will you cut the crap out about value, and morale

because your mindset is still what's good for you, not for them...

you don't fucking know what's good for them, and what's the future for them...

you're just afraid for history to repeat itself

god! you're such a coward!

so what if it happen??

god! you're so selfish!

shouldn't you be happy?!

god! you're so ungrateful!

just find a new one!

You fucking melancholy, friend-depended mind!

*P.S : This is me, angry with myself..

Idle mind (selfish thought)

i cared for for people so much..

sometimes it is so much that it bugs them

i asked them "what's wrong?"

even when they answered "no, i'm fine"

i just know that something is wrong

and i just want you to tell me,

because i hope that i can lift your burden

and make you smile..

i'll stay with you, if it what you need

is it a mistake?

i know i can't think about this..

but please, just once..

i want somebody that asked me "what's wrong?"

when i feel blue..

and he/she are really meant it.. not just for formality..

i used to have them, and they're far from me right now

Break-up and Make-up

I just opened up plurk... in there, there's my friend that had a fight with his girlfriend, then they're easily says "okay! let's break-up!"..

I find it, weird

I find it, Unbelievable

I find it, Upsetting..

Why, because is it so easy to say "break up??"

That's such a big word for me... it's frightening, it's uncertain. it's just not right...

it's a word that you shouldn't be saying spontaneously without thinking!

Every couple always, and MUST have their own fight

but, that problem can make us STRONGER & CLOSER...

I wonder if i break-up with my girlfriend long time ago, when the problem is at peak, and i'm really stressed...

I wonder how many moments that i will be missed..

How many laugh, that i will miss??

How many hug, that i will miss??

How many Cuddle, that i will missed??

How many of her smile, our smile, that i will miss??

How many story sharing time, that i will miss??

How many dates, that i will miss??

How many kiss, that i will miss??

Just think about that making me goosebumps...

Just wait, just think....

Because it's not about how many times he/she make you upset or angry...

But it's about how many times that he/she :

make you happy,

make you smile,

make you wipe out your tears,

make you laugh,

make you confident,

make you feels good,

make you excited to meet her,

make your spirit glows...

"How many times that he or she make you feel that you are precious in this world"

When you think about that, all of your problem with him/her is worth it...

"it really worth to have him/her in this world"

place to stay

After a while..

and i need a while to realize it...

i got another place to stay...

hope i wont make the same mistake twice..

^^