Regret

Baru kmaren, gw buka puasa bareng2.. sekaligus sesi curhat dengan "Pandora", team oddisey gw...

Disana kita mengungkapkan perasaan msg2 dan gw ngrasa terharu bgt dengan tim ini...

dan, gw beranikan diri lagi melihat suatu blog. dan membaca tulisan-tulisan maut itu....

Blog itu berisikan :

"Jadi ya masalah terletak di koreo... koreo pada saat berantem tepatnya. Semua kerasa... gitu doang... agak datar dan terjadi begitu cepat"

Gw ga nyalahin coment itu, klo menurut dy bener, ya gw ga bs nomong apa2 lg kn.. sebagai choreografer, sudah seharusnya gw memuaskan "ekspetasi" penonton, dan menerima kritik (everything needs a critic)

dan sekarang gw cmn bs bilang...

gw nyesel bgt, nyesel knp gw ga bs lebih bagus lg.

gw nyesel bgt, knp gw ga brusaha lebih keras lg.

Maksud gw bkn brarti gw Gabut di Pandora (HA! No freakin' way, gw pernah gw tidur 3 hari gara2 ngurusin koreo)

Maksud gw, knp gw ga bisa menerima sesuatu dengan keyakinan, dan optimisme...

Slama bikin koreo gw selalu berpikir bgini

"aduh! gw kn koreo dance, mana bisa gw bikin koreo perang"

"ahh! shit! mana bisa gw bikin koreo kyk gini"

"argh! kyknya koreo ini sampah bgt"

"kyknya mending bukan gw d yg jd koreografrer"

Gw nyesel bgt, gw bertugas dengan perasaan2 seperti ini.. dan jk gw g kyk gt gw pasti bisa lebih baik lagi..

maaf teman2 pandora... gw ga bs lbh bagus dari itu...

tp demi mereka gw berjanji, kalo gw akan belajar yakin kepada diri sendiri dan yakin akan apa yg gw perbuat

Great lesson!

Thx Pandora...

My Heart for Pandora and Oddisey 2009

Hmmm... Finally it's over, Oddisey.. the show that bring me to sleepless night, but actually, i'm kinda miss it somehow, even though i remember myself talking the other day, "shit, when will this over".

But now, i feel kinda miss all the training, my team, the atmosphere, it all felt so beautiful... hahaha....

To my beloved Pandora, i am really-really glad, to be a part of our magnificent team, i feel so grateful to work besides you guys...

now, i'm tormented with guilt,

i'm really sorry for my incompetence, my emotion, and all of my flaws in the process...

to Director :

i'm sorry for everything, i can't meet your expectation, i can't even catch up with your schedule... i feel that sometimes, i burdened you with my uncontrolled emotion, i'm really sorry... you are a great director, and i love to have you as my supervisor...

to Stage Manager :

I'm really sorry for my incompetence, that you must help me to fulfilled my task even though as stage manager, you have a lot of other task. I'm really grateful to be helped by you... and i'm really sorry if you somehow offended by every emotion that i accidentally showed evert time we argued.

to Music Director :

I'm really happy to have you as my MD, i'm sorry for my behavior that sometimes change frequently, so you have to remake the music over and over again and i feel really sorry when you feel hard to meet my request..

to Costume Designer and Property Master :

I'm really sorry that if my request are too much for you, i'm really sorry if i were ever make you stress and all. But in the end you all did a great job and i'm really proud of you..

to All Talent :

I'm really sorry if my teaching style is somehow offend you. I'm glad with all you guys.. i'm sorry if i was ever being impatience and arrogant..

to someone :

i'm sorry for my behavior for the last days on oddisey, but i hope you know, that my reaction was not really wrong, and i still care about you..

well people, In the end, we all did it! no matter what people say (and i know some did..) i'm really proud of us,,, and i think we did a f***ing great job! Don't cha agree?? haha!

well it's holiday people!

lets use it wise before the next torment-ion, i mean semester comes...

happy holiday all! let's relax for a while, or better, let's relax together.. hahaaaaa...

Love u guys!!!!

PANDORA : ULANG, eh, LATIHAN TERUS, eh.... DON'T OPEN THE BOX!!!! YEAHH!!!