My Heart for Pandora and Oddisey 2009

Hmmm... Finally it's over, Oddisey.. the show that bring me to sleepless night, but actually, i'm kinda miss it somehow, even though i remember myself talking the other day, "shit, when will this over".

But now, i feel kinda miss all the training, my team, the atmosphere, it all felt so beautiful... hahaha....

To my beloved Pandora, i am really-really glad, to be a part of our magnificent team, i feel so grateful to work besides you guys...

now, i'm tormented with guilt,

i'm really sorry for my incompetence, my emotion, and all of my flaws in the process...

to Director :

i'm sorry for everything, i can't meet your expectation, i can't even catch up with your schedule... i feel that sometimes, i burdened you with my uncontrolled emotion, i'm really sorry... you are a great director, and i love to have you as my supervisor...

to Stage Manager :

I'm really sorry for my incompetence, that you must help me to fulfilled my task even though as stage manager, you have a lot of other task. I'm really grateful to be helped by you... and i'm really sorry if you somehow offended by every emotion that i accidentally showed evert time we argued.

to Music Director :

I'm really happy to have you as my MD, i'm sorry for my behavior that sometimes change frequently, so you have to remake the music over and over again and i feel really sorry when you feel hard to meet my request..

to Costume Designer and Property Master :

I'm really sorry that if my request are too much for you, i'm really sorry if i were ever make you stress and all. But in the end you all did a great job and i'm really proud of you..

to All Talent :

I'm really sorry if my teaching style is somehow offend you. I'm glad with all you guys.. i'm sorry if i was ever being impatience and arrogant..

to someone :

i'm sorry for my behavior for the last days on oddisey, but i hope you know, that my reaction was not really wrong, and i still care about you..

well people, In the end, we all did it! no matter what people say (and i know some did..) i'm really proud of us,,, and i think we did a f***ing great job! Don't cha agree?? haha!

well it's holiday people!

lets use it wise before the next torment-ion, i mean semester comes...

happy holiday all! let's relax for a while, or better, let's relax together.. hahaaaaa...

Love u guys!!!!

PANDORA : ULANG, eh, LATIHAN TERUS, eh.... DON'T OPEN THE BOX!!!! YEAHH!!!

Current...

Tired....

Tired with this script i wrote by myself...

Afraid...

Afraid of missing the past...

Scared...

Scared for being nuisance again...

Hurt...

Hurt by my own decision...

but i have to do it anyway...^^

Bingung...

*Sorry klo pake bhs indo... gw lg bingung gila..

Gila, gw gila...

ga tau kenapa akhir2 ini gw sama sekali ga ada semangat bwat belajar...

gw ngrasa gw ada gunanya lagi bwat gw.......

krn gw ga tau gw bener apa enggak masuk di sbm ini...

ini bukan minat gw sbenernya... (masuk bwat ortu)...

gw malah ga tau minat gw apa...

hhh, jadi kepikiraannn mulu....

gw jadi ga semangat ngapa2in...

nyusun PA, yg biasanya gw smangat bgt... skarang stengah2...

Kerjaan gw skarang.. tidur, dan browsing internet...

mana mau uts...

bingung gila gw...

knapa ya??

apa krn gw kehilangan pegangan??

WTF??!

I just don't know..

Lately, i always had a bad mood...

don't know why...

but it getting worser and worser everyday..

like today, i feel like, don't want to smile.... don't want to socialize that much... but i forced myself to fight it... 

Well, i do have problem.. but i don't think of it that much...

so what is the cause??

it's really bugging me.. since i may hurt someone accidentally... (i am always a blubber mouth when i'm in a bad mood)..

maybe this is a mood swing?? (but, i never had one of those before..)

Hunger?? (Hmmm... i guess not..)

Health Problem?? (Maybe... i always felt dizzy lately)

Menstruation?? (rrrr.... yeahhh right!)

WTF is happening to me???

Woman for me

Woman for me... Is Someone that i loved, i cared, and i adore so much!

Woman for me... Is Someone who feel the same way as i feel to her....

Woman for me... Is Someone that understand that i'm not flawless, and still accept it...

Woman for me... Is Someone that try to understand me, as i try to understand her...

Woman for me... Is Someone that wait for me patiently, even when i'm not there...

Woman for me... Is Someone that so afraid that i would leave her, yet she sure that i'm not

Woman for me... Is Someone when i think about, i'll feel that i'm not alone in this world...

Woman for me... Is Someone that agreed that as long as we're loved each other, there's nothing to doubt about...

Woman for me... Is Someone that put my need above her, even when i told her not to...

Woman for me... Is Someone that so afraid when i'm mad, yet try to understand it instead of fight it...

Woman for me... Is Someone i cried about after she's mad at me...

Woman for me... Is Someone that so afraid that she's no match for me, and i feel the same way too...

Woman for me... Is Someone that can't imagined a world without each other...

And.............

Woman for me... Is YOU!...

Thx for being the greatest part in my life....

I'm sorry about all my flaws

and i hope you'll accept it forever...

I loved you so much!

The Reason

Without "Black", there will be no "White"

Without "Sad", There will be no "Happy"

Without "Bad", there will be no "Good"

Without "Disappointment", There will be no "Faith"

Without "Failure", There will be no "Success"

Without "Enemy", There will be no "Friends"

Without "Dark, There will be no "Lights"

and.....

Without "Problems", There will be no "Life"

Now we know why those $#!t things are created...

Why cry over it??

Changed it!

Just Go!

Leave...

Get Out of my Life...

I've been Happy...

Thx For Asking!!!